
I seriously need to blog 'cause I'm feeling so fricking un-motivated now. No link, I know. But I just wanna do something instead of watching CrissAngel on Channel5 now.
Remembered something all of a sudden.
XX: What you doing?
YY: Eating dinner at MOS now lor.
XX: Huh, so cool ley. I've never eaten there before.
YY: (NANI?!)
XX: So is it very high there?
YY: EH! Is Mos burger. Not M.O.S
(LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL) Tmd, you've so much brains to keep bluffing girls to date you. This kinda thing then you dk. Still tell others, "she like different wavelength as me ley."
It's MYE now. &I'm getting quite. No, very emo about it. But it isn't time to start blabbering about my thoughts about my life and stuffs. Still.......
1. I really wonder what is my purpose in life.
2. Am I really fit to call myself a christian when I'm totally back-sliding and behaving like this now?
3. Is studies my only way to prove my mum that I'm not that exactly useless?
4. What have happened to my studies? Seriously.
5. Am I thinking too much about r/s problems and is he really the main reason why I can't fricking allow myself to get into a serious, lasting relationship.
6. What's the world becoming when girls at age of 13 think that sex is no big deal and being a non virgin is so cool. &What's with the pact at some school in America where all the girs wanna get pregnant? They are even more upset to learn that they're not pregnant.
7. What do I exactly want in life?
8. I've finally convinced myself that JC is a better alternative compared to poly/ aust. So how the hell am I supposed to get myself all motivated again to study.
9. Why the hell am I so dependant on others
10. Why do I miss you that badly.
6months have passed. There's only 1 and 1/2 more years left (Hopefully) for my JC education. Time passed so fast that I didn't even realise I have wasted so much time away. Probably spent the whole time whining about why the hell did I land myself into a Jc instead of going NP doing Psychology/ Childhood services.
Yknow. When love is gone, you can never get it back. When I told you I've fallen for you like, months &months ago. You chose to be nonchalant 'cause you felt that you aren't ready for commitment. Now, when I'm finally over you, getting so used with my everyday life. You told me, "Look, I like you too. But I'm still unable to convince myself to commit into a r/s 'cause I'm unable to give up my singlehood enjoyment (like clubbing, flirting and blahblahblah, I supposed) for you. Still, I like you to be mine." Hey mister. Nice joke. From eyecandies to crushes, back to friends to close friends. &now, how do you want me to react? It started so long back then &there's no way things could get back like before either.
&I fricking hate MYE not because of those stress + studying + crappy mood swings and blah. But, I just can't see him for like sososo many days. RawrRawrRawr. I don't mind having morning papers (At least there's a chance to see him.) It's okkkkkkkkkk. Mye is going to be over for him soon. &Mye is going to be over in like, 14hours later :D I seriously need to lepakkkkkkkkkk
