
Hi. Hello. Hey.
I'm shagged. Mentally. Some things happened. Like usual, I chose to run away from the problem by starting cold war again. It's not as though I don't wanna solve the problems between us. But... I suck at it. Idk how to confront it. Or rather, face you. We once said, Jc won't be affecting our friendship in any way. Somehow, it proved otherwise huh. We changed. (I mean, it's pretty obvious that we're no longer similar.) You have other interests, commitments, friends and yeah, so do I. Well, things don't always happen the way we want them to be. The change you had, the long moments of silence we had, the disputes that we have, the unhappiness and disagreements screaming within us...........
Well, it isn't supposed to turn this way right?
"People change. Adapt to their changes. It's like, how your parents adapt to your changes too." Still, you're changing way too fast for me to adapt to it. It had been an issue troubling me for quite some time. &I supposed you have felt it too. But... it's soooooo us to keep silent about such problems. I hope, the situation will turn for the better. (I really hope so.) I supposed 4years of friendship isn't that easy to forgo.
Wellwell, got back my math paper, like, yesterday.
19.5/70. (Crap shit @#%$#^%*&^)
xx: Hey, what did you get?
yy: U la.
xx: High U or Low U?
yy: (huhhuhhuh?)
xx: above 25 is high, below 25 is low.
yy: WAH. Then I got high U leyyyyyy :D
It's still a comfort okkkkkkkkkkk. (Rawr.) It's too late for regrets. Hmmm, at least MYE is allowing me to wake up to my ideas. So yadayada. Moral of the story, I'm really forcing myself to mug. Since there is only, 10 weeks to promos. I have no intention of retaining or on the verge of retaining once again. History doesn't repeat, right.
Chem Spa was a total piss-me-off session where you spent 2 hours listening to this old blah screeching at her totally act cute &sharp &whatever voice. Irritated the hell outta me. (I think is everyone lor) All I could remember was her crushing us with her oh-so-classy opinions about how inadequete we are in terms of studies/ experimental techinques, contextual knowledge and lastly, our upbringing. Hellooooooo~ talking about upbringing (?)
Random-ness: Xiaxue and Dawn Yang's blog cat-fighting turned out to be quite interesting. Entertaining I supposed.
Which then brought me to think about this........ What is beauty? Is beauty that important? Which reminds me of my first GP essay. Is beauty essential for success in today's society? or something like this. Obviously, I've loads to comment about it.
Went Bugis &Bras Basah with Rachel and Sam to get some art materials. Gossipped, like usual. Well, Sam and Rach has a lot to comment on ah lians attempting to look older than they are supposed to be, attempting to look pretty. (I mean who don't?!) when they are. urm. Average looking &spending the whole journey putting make up. It turns me off a little, but yeah. Overdoing certain things tend to lead to adverse results. Grab Mos, gaigai around Popular and shop-ed at Bugis Junction then tadaaaaa, ice cream treat. Went home, peng &sleep. Woke up with a fricking headache that has been hurting for hours.
(Oh, my tongue hurts ley. As in, it feels like I had scalded it or something. But I don't remember ley. &it had been there for like, 4days? It gets numb sometimes too. So I started whining and everything. Like usual, Sam &Rach told me to shut up and wait for it to subside. Not your tongue what!)
It's going to be a depressing week next week~
(3rdJul :D)
