JAE ended.
School is starting.
Am I going to allow you to manipulate my future once again?
I never wanted to have control over something so badly...
But you insisted.
Does it occur to you that my happiness is way more important than achievements?
Wait a minute...
I don't even have any achievements to begin with 'cause I went to a JC despite knowing that I don't have the abilities to and screwed up my entire year.
And now.
I don't wanna do this anymore.
Is not only 'cause I lose interest.
The main reason is...
I hate what I am doing.
I can't wait to get out of the f JC and head to a poly to start with a new course that is at least relevant to my life.
However...
Your expectations reasoning experience and whatever shit excuses are stopping me.
I can't even convince myself to be good and stay in a JC mug hard promote ace A's get into local U. 'Cause that's not what I wanted what I chose.
Thinking of my future, arguing with you is making me confused and glum D:<
I can't even make you think in my perspective.
Ykno how much expectations kill?
My parents' expectations are stopping me from going after what I want.
My expectations of you are making me upset 'cause I hoped you'll be able to fulfil what I want but I'll end up in disappointment though.
Baby, our expectations towards this relationship are way too different.
As much as I hoped that you'll be able to meet my expectations, think along my line, I know it's impossible. Ykno, sometimes compromising doesn't make all things work?
I love you, Baby.
